I don’t know who I am anymore. I feel like I am disconnected from everything and just going through the motions of living. I feel like I lost the one person that made me feel good and whole and present and now I don’t know how to get that feeling back again. I have friends here but not the kind of friends I need right now; I miss Kaila and Mer. I don’t know what I am doing or who to talk to about this. I want to go home.